People In My Life: Part 1

So there are few people in my life that really mean a lot to me. These are people I would pretty much take a bullet for, people that I want to succeed more than anything else, people who I would follow into battle or carry on my back for mile if they needed it.

So the first person I want to highlight is my girlfriend. This you say may be a bit cliche but, well I love her more than I realize at times, I spend pretty much every day with her and she is the first person I call for anything. She has been there for me over the last year in times that I really needed her, a listening ear, some strong advice... someone to let me know when I'm crazy and when I'm actually not.

I've know her for a few years, we were friends, hung out got to know each other. We started dating in early April, we had hung out a lot so it wasn't hard making the transition. It felt right and it was great getting to know her more.

Over the next few months we spent more and more time together and grew close. She wrote me a note a day when I went on a missions trip in early July, and I know without them I would not have been able to get through the trip.

She has been there the whole time encouraging me, and making it ok for me to be me with her.
Its going to be a hard change for the next few months, she is moving, about 7 hours away. I wont be able to hold her when she is sad or see her smile when I make her laugh, or kiss her on the neck as she finishes her make up before we go out. That will be hard, but it will also help, it will help make us communicate more. It can be hard, even when I see her everyday to let her know whats going on inside my head. I use the word stuff way too much. Everything going on is stuff. What am I doing, just stuff, so I need to open up and let her know what my "stuff" is.

We will see how the next weeks and months play out. I know I want to be there for her, I want to hold her close in bad times, and laugh in good times, but Im going to have to settle for a phone call, a kind more, a joke. Its going to have to be ok, there is nothing I can do to change it, but I want her to be ok more than anything else. Even if her future doesnt include me, I want her to have what she needs, her life is her's to live, and I have enjoyed being a part of it. For the most part, my only goal was to make her happy and to share my life with her. As things go on, my still only goal is make her happy.